I am just nothing!

Who i am??I am nobody here,i am just nothing!I always ask my self,what can i do with my future?And what i am doing now??The answer of mine is i am just a failure!I am not fighting for any things.Actually cant said that i am not doing my part n fight for my life,the point is no body supporting me at all!!First,i wanna go 2 school and study,but my useless dad is not paying any school fees,so.....i cant back 2 school!i gonna find the school fees by myself!Second,i wanna go to taiwan and fight for my dream,but everyone is stopping me!so....??what can i do in the rest of my life??just keep continue singing in the food court here and yet i already knew that there is no future in this job?!singing is my mum wished me to do this,because i can earn more n pay her more,study is my dad's wished me to go on because he will be proud of himself to have a daughter can study well~but he not putting any responsiblity on it!!damnF!!!!Everyone is expecting me to be this and that,but do u know how is my feeling with it??Do u think that i am a doll??I am human too~i have my feeling also,let me control myself ok?Now i can say i am 100% regret to be back to this home!i should be alone by myself at outside,so i can do anything i like,even tough it is thought!! But at least i can fight for this and that!!!And i am regret choosing not to go overseas,because somebody promised me will looking for my dreams at malaysia here!i am 100% regret of it!!! I AM REGRET TO CHOOSE THIS WAY!!!!

I am moody recently

Aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhh!!!!I cant take it anymore!!!I will be going MAD if i did not express it out.I really hope to go to taiwan,because it is my dream.Do u understand me?Who knows my feeling now?If u have your dream,i am sure u will go ahead with it right?But why are you STOPPING me??huh???why??????I know you are worrying about my life there,but i promise i will take care of myself well..ok??Because i do not want myself to regret of losing this very very very good opportunity!Please let me try ok??Once you stopped me,i cried for this few days do u know it??I can take care of myself,can u just let go?Let me go and fight for my dream?Can i?Because i am no more young child here,please~~~Let me go...I just want 2 fight for my future...can i??I knew it will be very dangerous for  me to go to another country...but can u just let me try??I cant just stay beside you and doing nothing for myself,i just need u to give me this chance...I dont need you to worry about me,i will be fine,i can manage and handle it by myself...Since that day i heard u said u will stop me,do you know hows my feeling??before that,you just promise that you will let me go and tried it,but now u said NO!!!Why God just give me half chance,where is the other half?God give me half chance,that i can fight for my dream,but the whole family object!!My feeling now is just like....some of the things that u desire it is coming 2 u soon,and the thing is just beside you,you just gotta put out your hand and you can get it,but when u are ready n putting out your hand,but some one just snatch it or break it!!Do you know hows that feeling??These few days i have not been happy before,even though i am smiling with you,but inside my heart,who knows??I am just pretending to be happy,and i am forcing myself to talk to you,actually i dun even want to talk to you...I just feel like wanna hiding in my room...I dun even want to eat,but i am forcing myself to eat as much as i can...I dun like this kind of life,is so fake!!!I just want to be the real sheryn which who i am!Can i???What i need is your support..is so easy...Maybe u will say i am too innocent,going taiwan is not that easy,and i gotta think of this and that....Oh my goodness!!Because you never let me tried to be independence before,i admit,ya~i am innocent...that's why i need you to let go,let me have my own future...let me leave you and fight for what i really need...If i never tried of anything,and just stay with you in the rest of my life and i will regret!!!Because i am just like nothing,never try to be the best that i can...but this time i am serious with it,can u just let me try??Please....~~If u still stop me,then i have nothing to said,i will just be here,n follow what u order me,BUT!!!!I will NEVER BE HAPPY

My dream is going to break into pieceses...

Every one have their dream,and i dream is to become an actor...It is not because of i am dreaming to become an artist,is just that i like to act movie and singing as well...Few days ago,i got this chance,in taiwan,they are asking me to go over there to take a look,and to prove that there is a real media company,and i am so happy n excited!BUT.....!!,my mum is stopping me!!She is worrying about my life over there,because taiwan got a lotz of gangster there,she scared that i will be cheated by the people there...Once i go over there,i knew that i will lost my freedom,n other things else...But this is my dream,if i just give up like this,i am sure that i will regret!!But i really hope to be there,i tried to fight for a chance to be there,but i failed!!haizz.........I know i cant do any thing else......tatz the only way,GIVE UP!!!I got no mood to write down my feelings here...haizz...who can understand me??!!