I am moody recently

Aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhh!!!!I cant take it anymore!!!I will be going MAD if i did not express it out.I really hope to go to taiwan,because it is my dream.Do u understand me?Who knows my feeling now?If u have your dream,i am sure u will go ahead with it right?But why are you STOPPING me??huh???why??????I know you are worrying about my life there,but i promise i will take care of myself well..ok??Because i do not want myself to regret of losing this very very very good opportunity!Please let me try ok??Once you stopped me,i cried for this few days do u know it??I can take care of myself,can u just let go?Let me go and fight for my dream?Can i?Because i am no more young child here,please~~~Let me go...I just want 2 fight for my future...can i??I knew it will be very dangerous for  me to go to another country...but can u just let me try??I cant just stay beside you and doing nothing for myself,i just need u to give me this chance...I dont need you to worry about me,i will be fine,i can manage and handle it by myself...Since that day i heard u said u will stop me,do you know hows my feeling??before that,you just promise that you will let me go and tried it,but now u said NO!!!Why God just give me half chance,where is the other half?God give me half chance,that i can fight for my dream,but the whole family object!!My feeling now is just like....some of the things that u desire it is coming 2 u soon,and the thing is just beside you,you just gotta put out your hand and you can get it,but when u are ready n putting out your hand,but some one just snatch it or break it!!Do you know hows that feeling??These few days i have not been happy before,even though i am smiling with you,but inside my heart,who knows??I am just pretending to be happy,and i am forcing myself to talk to you,actually i dun even want to talk to you...I just feel like wanna hiding in my room...I dun even want to eat,but i am forcing myself to eat as much as i can...I dun like this kind of life,is so fake!!!I just want to be the real sheryn which who i am!Can i???What i need is your support..is so easy...Maybe u will say i am too innocent,going taiwan is not that easy,and i gotta think of this and that....Oh my goodness!!Because you never let me tried to be independence before,i admit,ya~i am innocent...that's why i need you to let go,let me have my own future...let me leave you and fight for what i really need...If i never tried of anything,and just stay with you in the rest of my life and i will regret!!!Because i am just like nothing,never try to be the best that i can...but this time i am serious with it,can u just let me try??Please....~~If u still stop me,then i have nothing to said,i will just be here,n follow what u order me,BUT!!!!I will NEVER BE HAPPY